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I look at my life and wonder what would be different if I didn't live it out for Jesus. There have been low times in my life that, looking back, I can label as "transitional stages" where my life lacked direction, but God eventually formed something out of that nothingness. These low times were only ever short periods. Currently I am facing the longest "transitional" period in my life; spanning years. I begin to wonder if this is a transitional period is really a transitional one at all, or whether it's just what my life has become; nothingness and lacking direction. I have lived for God and trusted him with everything I have, so how have I ended up here? How much longer will my life be in this position? There is a verse that I have lived by for as long as I can remember: "For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it." (Matthew 16:25). What this verse means is that those who try to save everything in life that brings them pleasure

Throughout my life I have been described as a positive person. In university, one of my course mates said to me, "I can never imagine you sad." I can't remember exactly how I responded, but I imagine if you were to ask my younger self why I was always so jolly, my response would have been that I had Jesus in my life and my heart, and that gave me joy; a fruit of the Holy Spirit (as mentioned in Galatians 5:22-23). However, as I grow older I find days where I feel the deep empty feeling of despair; a black hole with no bottom. My fear in typing this journal entry is that it would become a discouragement to my Christian brothers and sisters; that even a mature Christian can feel the pain of despair, and feel it often. Yet as a Christian I believe strongly in presenting the truth, and I believe that by being open about my experiences with despair, another person with similar experiences may find comfort. As I analyse my feeling of despair, I identify many causes. However, each cause has

Suffering is something that we all go through in life. Many times when we suffer, those around us have different things to say. Some will encourage you, some will tell you that your problems aren't as big as theirs, and some will try to help but fail in doing so. I guess it's only natural that people will not always know how to comfort you, as we are all human. The only person who truly knows how to comfort you is God, and He may do so through other people. But where is He when we suffer? And why does He let us suffer? There is a huge misinterpretation I want to dis-spell before going deeper into the subject of suffering; the bible does not